in the name of S.E.X

So i listen to morning talk show, its like as soon as i open my eyes the radio goes on, bet no one will believe me when i say i was born in the 90s. Anyway one of the fascinating topics of today was virgins, it turns out there is someone at the age of 72 who still hasn't had sex, as if i needed anymore reminders that i need to get laid. Top 5 songs that turns me on and gets me in the mood to just....well you get the picture.

confession of a sexaholic

I have a confession to make, i'm so damn horny its unbelievable. The last couple of days all i can think about is sex, day and night. All i want is sex, so much its frustrating me. As if being frustrated and unbelievably horny wasn't enough, but i'm also embarrassed by this, i'm even embarrassed to admit it to myself, and this is one of the many ways that our society is so fucked up.

i hate this part right here...

Its been what...2 or maybe 3 weeks since we had that conversation, i miss her so much. I miss getting random texts from her, i miss talking to her first thing in the morning and listening to her complain about work, and i miss all the late night chats, but mostly i miss having her around when i need her, knowing i can count on her to be there when i need help.

Randomness of my days

I always wondered what a bus driver does when he suddenly needs to 'go' while doing his runs, today i find out the embarrassing truth. If at all you can not hold it in, you have one option really and that is to answer nature's call. Look for gas station or fast food outlet, park the bus and leave all the passengers waiting while you dash inside to find the restroom, rush back to the bus full of passengers who were just about to lose their patience, as you walk in everyone is starring at you with that look that pretty much says ' i know exactly how long you took in there and have a pretty good idea what you were doing.' As if that wasn't embarrassing enough one of the passengers says 'Nice of you to come back, feel much better now?'  All i can say is i'm glad i'm not and will never be a bus driver in that situation.

Progress...

i thought i was making progress, guess i was wrong. Oh did i just have a re-lapse? hmm starting to sound like an addict. Now that i'm no longer breastfeeding i miss my boys, wish i could have some jack or Johnnie but i wonder if it will be wrong. I thought i would stay away from alcohol for good but i honestly cant see myself doing that. Hmm i guess i'm lucky i'm on antibiotics and cant drink...but is it really luck? i think i wanna have a cigarette just one i miss it. maybe tomorrow, yes definitely.

Silly Silly me i have to be sent to the naughty corner for 21 minutes

My world came to a complete stop, while i was taking a minute to understand why everything suddenly started moving at such a high speed that i got dizzy. I have a massive headache because i just cannot control thought running through my head, they go by so fast i cant even  understand a single one of them. My heart is beating so fast, so many emotions i'm feeling all at one time i just cant handle it.

We are on a mission part 2

Mission one has been accomplished, my little angel sleeps on her own and through the night. I'm a proud and well rested mum.

Mission two- a happy mummy.

Then What??

I been thinking a lot about my current situation, wondering what i should do and if it will be the right thing. I read one of my previous posts about whats important and accepting things as they are, i asked my self, then what?? so i'm just a friend, what do i do now, do i stop loving her, get over her and move on? What if i don't want to do that? Does it mean the absolute end?