I Want You...

Ok so i really like this girl... and i mean REALLY like this girl

Shes so beautiful and absolutely amazing. We see each other at least once during the week and sometimes we catch up for a night out unfortunately im just a friend :( I saw her today we had a chat and god i'm mesmerized, i just... i cant even find the words to describe what i feel for her and how she makes me feel when i'm with her.

Sad thing is she probably would never go out with me.

Study week

Beginning of every semester every student is looking forward to study break, making big plans for holidays or planning to be relaxing at the beach or in my case spending the week at my parents house in Sydney for the last time before its put on the market for rent.

As study break approaches it slowly becomes clear that the week will be spent buried under books and research thesis because all the assignments will be due first week back. Yes that is my plans for study break, finishing my research thesis and drafting law reports.
*sad face*

One at last..

Yes my baby girl is finally one....12 months she has been alive and in those twelve months we have had so much fun and done a whole lot of growing up... both of us.

It seems like my life took a different direction when she was born, whole new perspective, a new personality a new role and a new destiny. I knew that i wanted to be a lawyer when she was born. i moved interstate after she was born and most importantly i found out who i really am after she was born. She is my savior and my angel.

They never take the easy way out..

I guess introductions are in order.

Viv's dad will call him LG. Well he lives about couple of hours from us, half a day drive to be exact. he has no contact with her, no visits or call not even just to see how she is, this is all his doings by the way.

As of me n him, we never really went anywhere, r/ship is fucked literally and there's history of abuse...that's all i can say. To be honest i don't hate him or have any ill feelings towards him, but i am truly afraid of him, i don't think i can have a decent conversation with him and i fear what he will make me agree to do if i talk to him, and i do not want to be in the same room with him ever nor do i ever wanna be alone with him.

That being said, i need a passport for my sweet for a holiday and he is saying no. Now i gotta go through court and for me to go through court i have to go through mediation first and that requires me sitting in a room with him and talking to him.

DAMN YOU!!

Old habits die hard

Lately my head has been exploding because i let all my thoughts pile up in there. There is so much going on at the moment i'm so confused and i'm tired. I hate and i do mean hate having house mates or whatever. I miss being free around my home, the silence and i so miss the cleanliness of my home before. I honestly want them gone but i don't know how to make that happen.

School is getting busy, i guess the honey moon period is over, yes i am now officially in a committed relationship with the law and hoping to get married in the next 2 or 3 years when i get admitted into the law society or the bar. Back to the point, its hectic 3 research assignment and a very tricky family law assignment. 4 Weeks into the session and i'm already 100% sure i do not want to have anything to do with family law. Its my opinion that family law is absolute bull, its unfair and there's no such thing as fairness and justice in that area of law, yet its very important and again in my opinion the most needed piece of legislature.

Im hoping to be able to come in here and write some more to allow space to take all these reading in before exam time, 4 HDs is what i'm after this time around. On the last note who knew employment law could be so damn boring.

explanation of my relationship

birthday blues

Its miss Viv's first birthday in exactly two weeks. Im excited and looking foward to it, its a big deal. Nobody seems to care, nobody doesnt even wanna help me celebrate it, even her grandparents can you believe my mother even said to me "well i dont celebrate birthdays anymore" i feel like just being furious but with everything going on i dont even have the strength to be. I guess its just you and me Viv just like its always been. I love you